"I grew up in Russia, with my mom and grandma being deeply religious, and because of that I have been dragged into church as a kid quite often. There's something eerie and depressing about being inside of Orthodox Christian Church, hence why religious people always go there to grieve and be alone with their thoughts. The sole presence there definitely creates the mood that is very heavy-hearted and mentally pressing.
It smell unique, for sure when the pope comes around and flails that big lamp thing with incense. Also, i think it's a combination of religiously euphoric experience and comfort of delusion, as well as the haunting atmosphere of big churches.
In Orthodoxy, there is nothing dark and heavy. Heaviness comes from a guilty conscience. And the liberation of the imaginary freedom which give fun and enjoyment "of this world" turn into an even more profound crisis. During intoxication should always be a hangover.
But how bright and happy feeling visit to you when you live in peace with God, when you enter the temple with Lord in a very subtle, prayerful communion. Feels like being in the coniferous forest with clean air after get out from a dirty city. It seems to be the same lungs, but in reality it has changed.
Makes me feel like home."
-Pravoslavni
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